Making lemonade is not always the first thing you think of doing when life has given you lemons. Some, myself included, first think of throwing them at someone or throwing it back at life. The former being a normal human nature response while the latter occurring when you’ve put your foot down and are ready to really dig in. Let’s be honest, times can get really difficult. You go from enjoying a relatively tranquil existence to having your entire world flipped upside down. If you’re not careful you end up in a rut that you can’t seem to dig yourself out of.
I admit that I have been angry for some time. I get caught up inside my own head and emotions, struggling to make sense of it all. Was I a terrible person in a former life? Did I do something terrible in this current one? Why does everything seem to be going so terribly wrong? But it’s as we all know, life is filled with hills and valleys and that in time we all must experience its highs and lows. In many ways I have felt like the past year and a half has been a perpetual low. Last year there were several life changes that would cause anyone to become severely depressed. That has persisted through 2015 and additional life changes seem to only pile on top of the old. There are moments, days and even weeks where you just don’t know how I’ll make it through. Read the rest of this entry »